thotacon @johnnydoe@queer.af

I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain
#Dune #FrankHerbert

moving to @HAL

first i sleep

hghghfhfh I might move accounts AGAIN soon I’m sorry (same instance prolly)

it’s too early to go to bed...but...eh...

took a nap 3hrs ago already tired again lol

I have a tumblr again now, I guess (warning: has nsfw art on it). cultoftherose.tumblr.com

maybe i ought to make art i can actually show ppl

time to boost my own porn again

ordered a “mango smoothie”at this restaurant and I’m pretty sure they just just served me melted vanilla ice cream in a glass

i haven’t talked about a name change much with them yet either bc i think i wanna wait a bit and see what sticks bc franks I’ll go by one name for like two years and then start calling myself something else

i don’t want to have to come out to people i wish i could just like...exist...

love having to come up w a mental list of ppl that are safe to come out to

im glad i know at least a very good clinic in the nearest big city that will provide (for a cost) HRT services to anyone who will waiver consent

because otherwise i would have to spend months dancing around doctors pretending to be a man

but it’s not like it’s something they are especially eager to confront they are obviously uncomfortable with it

genderfluid character?????????????

@johnnydoe i feel like it would be a lot easier to explain to them if i was a transman...but I’m really not...

it’s weird now that a I’m out to my parents as trans i really just don’t want to talk about it for some reason

someone: i have something important to talk to you about
my anxiety: (pssst they’re gonna hurt you)