Jenn @jenalyze@queer.af

I try not to talk about politics too much on here. That doesn't mean that my political views are different than others posting here, they're not.

It's just that I really want this space to be a bit more lighthearted personal, and not angry. I have other spots for anger.

That doesn't mean I disagree with the anger shown, I understand entirely why folks are mad, and I'm mad too- I just want to talk about other things here.

It is so easy to lose kneehigh socks in the dryer.

I realy wish I could get a free consult on whether/how much my hairline could be restored. That would do so much for figuring out if I want to go for it or accept life as it is.

Seeing one of your friends being shouted out on a major gaming stream, and hearing her marking out over it and hearing her squeeing on discord is just heartwarming.

I think part of the reason I don't like dressing fancy/super cute is that when you don't, it's easier to catch how people truly are- you learn who is ugly and who isn't.

Noticed I have a tendency on here to write the CW stuff in the search box, then wonder why it's messed up.

I really wonder if racism is a cause of all of this, or classism. Well, I don't wonder, I know. That said, neither janitor needed the work to live- they were just so used to lack of opportunity they believed in always having 1-2 side hustles, which is an attitude I don't see in white folks as much.

It's amazing how people often aren't what you expect. Often folks who seem to be in lower stations are more intelligeny/wise/perceptive than the folks we think are higher-up on the workscale. My job is considered above theirs, but the quality of the janitors we have is so much higher than my fellow coworkers.

The cleaning person at work came in at almost midnight last night- after a very long day. I told him he probably tired, and since the Karen of the workplace is on vacation, he could just rush it. We ended up talking instead. Turns out he's a teacher, and I think if I had him 20+ yrs ago, my life would have been very different, at the very least I wouldn't have been derailed by programming. My issue was I lack patience, which is my biggest character flaw.

Just realized my hair is going gray really, really fast- just like my mom's. Ugh.

Today hititng on me, mostly a feeling that I don't deserve the good things because I haven't suffered enough yet.

Also a sense of guilt about wanting to stay closeted, because what I like the most isn't necessarily appearance-based yet (though I'm sure that will change)

Well telemarker just made themselves useful- good way to test voice.

French question:
Does Grognard have a non-masculine form?

It's a weird feeling to watch a high level fighting game stream and want to eat one of the competitor's cooking! (she kicks my ass in the game, though I can occasionally beat her- her Mina is insane)